Im going to blog.
In two days it will be a month since my heart has been broken. I've done the best i can do to cope with the fact the person i love threw me away.

I could sit and blame him for everything but it wasn't all his fault, but at the same time it wasn't all mine. I fell in love with someone who clearly (at the time) didn't want it, but it inevitably happened - Now i sit alone at night thinking of all the memories we shared, and how hard it will be to get over it. I can't bare to eat at subway and theres just certain roads/places i can't bare to go down.

I think that if we did things differently it could work, but that's kind of the way it works in life. I know it didn't work the first three times (and im talking MAJOR breakups) but i am a strong believer love will conquer all. If Ricki and i were meant to be it'll work out that way, But if not then it was nice to have love in my life around the time i was most impressionable - If it wasn't for Ricki i know I'd probably be a lot worse off than i am now. I have alot to thank him for and alot to hate him for all at the same time.


OHHH. And i got my hip(s) pierced. Here's my story

Okay. So i got the idea to get my hips pierced after seeing a fag with them pierced online. I then realised no other gay down here has them (hehe) so i jumped at the chance to get them. So me and my friend Rachel Corman went on New Years Day and went to Skin Traditions and their piercer had left, We then went to some tattoo place on Victory Drive and they quoted me 120$ for both, I said fuck that. (This is the SAME tattoo place that attempted to charge me and my ex boyfriend 200$ EACH for our tattoos). We then went to Falcons and they basically talked me out of getting it,

I went home and redid my research and read up on some stories of people getting it done and while it has a chance of rejection every piercing does if not properly maintained. So, i went to my piercing place the following day and said i wanted my hip he warned me of the risks of rejection and stuff and i said i know, and we did it. Some girl went ahead of me she simply got her belly button done, mine required measuring and stuff. So, i got in there and they had me take my shirt and jacket off and he mesured and made sure everything was even between the piercings and my belly button.

So, he then marked me and laid me down. If anybody knows me im like the worlds BIGGEST pansy. So this was frightening experiance. Rachel stood above me taking picture and he claped me down, and then ... he told me to take a deep breath in hold it and on 3 let it out ... i did and as i let it out he pierced it and i honestly didn't feel it. He then put the bar in and then the balls. Then he told me to breathe for a second and he'll do the second one.

So .... he repeated the process and at this point i was sweating really bad because im a baby when it comes to pain and blood because I HATE BLOOD. So, I wasn't looking at the piercings yet. He repeated the process, Take a breath let it out . pierce and the second one seemingly hurt a little more than the first one. But, i think one side of my body is more sensitive than the other considering im only ticklish on one side, But anyway. After he screwed the balls in and all that i looked at it and i feel very accomplished. This is officially the most hardcore thing ive done in awhile.

So yeah .... they are doing well and it doesnt hurt really at all, but its bruised really bad right now ... Ill post pictures when its healed :)





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